It’s important to understand the difference between the feeling of wanting your desire, and the feeling of whatever your desire is. For the sake of example, I’ll use having a home of your own.
The feeling of wanting a home of your own has a particular nature. It feels like yearning, pining, longing-all those incomplete, reaching-for things. Wanting anything means you don’t have it. Wanting is a state that confirms itself. The feeling of wanting is like a void that no objects can fill. When you are in wanting you are like an empty bowl; you are always asking to be filled.
The feeling of having a home of your own, however, might include feelings of safety, warmth, comfort, happiness, sharing with friends, being anchored in the world, relaxation, authority over your own environment and many other things. This would be the “why” of wanting a home and would be the things that you want to focus on in order to create one. These aspects of your desire would have a particular resonance when you see them in your mind’s eye. You’d feel at rest, settled, completed, or energized, euphoric and happy-some kind of what I can only call receptive feeling. It would be a feeling of having done it, in a certain way.
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